Sunday, January 24, 2010 ♥
I suppose I have this low self-esteem syndrome. So low, to the point that sometimes I pity myself. And I hate myself for that stupid self-pity.
Sometimes I wish to be the girl who leaps through time [and yes, I'm totally making a movie reference here. I'm currently torrent downloading this movie. Can't wait.]. Then maybe I'll go back to the past. And then... maybe, just maybe, I'd tell him, "Hey, in the future, there'll be a bunch of girls who has this affectionate feeling towards you. Maybe those feelings are different, in terms of amount, or way. But point is they will hold affectionate feelings towards you. And I'm one of that girl."
Five minutes would be enough. I guess. Yes. It would be enough. Just enough to say those. And then know the past him even if it's just a little.
But then again. I'd be scared to get hurt, won't I? I'm just a cowardly, sidelines-viewer right?
Then again. I suppose that that's normal. Of course. It's normal.
We are all humans, after all. And human are egoists. And thus we are all egoists. And ego is a normal thing. Then, I suppose I'm normal?
Wow. See, aren't you pitying yourself again? Stop it.
Loneliness will soon set in again. For 19 days, try to hold on.
Yes, self. Hold on. Hold on. It's okay. You can do it. You can cope with it. Hold on. Hold on. Hold on. It won't be too lonely. It won't.
February 12. Let's hope it won't be long. Let's hope it won't be too long.
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