Thursday, February 18, 2010 ♥
So yesterday/last night/this dawn, I found out that my secondary school friends never really thought of me as a "friend" to begin with.
Not that it really matters, after all it's a rare occasion that your secondary school friends stay friends with you for life. Admit it.
But honestly, I'm a human too, aren't I? Then, I can feel betrayed too, aren't I? I can be hurt too, aren't I?
Don't call me your friend if you don't really mean it. Don't tell me that we're all friends if you don't really mean it. Don't. Really, don't. Don't do them, if in the end, you're gonna mention just some people as your friends anyway.
And somehow when I was ironing my shirt, I got this idea to create a personal project during my 3-months break with my college friends to create a video, asking people's opinions about what a friend is, and/or how a friend should be.
Because really, it hurts. It hurts to see your supposedly "friends", who you'll stand up for when they're in a fight, call your other friends "friends" and either purposely or purposelessly leave you out.
Because seriously, I'm tired to be hurt by my "supposedly friends". By these 3 girls I thought were my friends. It's like, just what the hell happened? I thought the FIVE of us were friends, and here it's like I suddenly disappeared from the surface of the earth and suddenly there are only FOUR of you guys?
Sick. I'm sick. I feel sick. I seriously do. I hate to admit it, but it's sickening.
But then again, this is it. This is what it's like, most of the time. And I just happen to be in that "most of the time" case. Teenage years. Secondary school years. High school years. Whatever you wanna call it. Everyone's superficial, everybody's fake. Everyone tries too hard to "fit in" and everybody lies. ADMIT IT.
Y'see, this is like... a chuunibyo. That means an, "Eighth grader disease".
But yeah. TL;DR, I'm thinking about creating a video, where people answer a simple question: WHAT IS A FRIEND TO YOU, AND WHAT IS HE/SHE SUPPOSED TO BE LIKE. The answer can be thoughtful, or spontaneous, or hilarious, or abstract. Anything.
...but yeah. That's still just a plan. I'd be glad if I have help though.
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